So I have been thinking a lot about my story.
The incident that changed my life forever.
When I was raped at 16 years old
Saying this scares me sometimes and Im afraid of people not believing me or judging me for what happened.
But for some reason I have been able to tell it
I have stood in front of 90 people and I lost it
I gave every detail of everything that happened
and I cried and I allowed myself to be vulnerable
Something that I have never done before
I let go.
and thats what I have been doing recently. Letting it all go.
I have said it before but I do forgive the person who harmed me and who took away my innocence
this experience has made me who I am and one that I think will always stay with me
It scares me to think that I may always have flashbacks but in a weird way its something that helps me keep going.
and thats what I have been thinking about.
but also everyones journey and their story and their individualism
and thats what made me realize.
My story is so important and I am proud of myself for telling it.
and I know that it is powerful
But I realized that the journey is what really matters.
I noticed that a lot of the times when people tell their story it ends there it ends with an amazing person opening their heart and using their story to inspire people to continue to move forward but it doesn't describe the everyday struggle.
The hardship and the hurt that must be dealt with everyday.
I must say that by no means am I saying that our stories are not important. We need them.
I am saying that I think the journey needs to be talked about more.
So I decided to broaden my public speaking.
To give this idea a shot.
I have no idea what the hell I am going to say but Im excited to see what the future holds.
I hope that you all can be apart of it as well and as usual that we can all work together to do something amazing.
who knows... maybe ill start an organization.
I love you all and you have no idea how important you are to this world.